The Allure of Being a Writer

I just read two chapter's in Neil Strauss's book the Stylelife diaries. AWESOME.

I don't know how happy he really is on the inside, but the man is just fucking awesome. He's a world famous writer and a pick up artist. He has adventures all around the world, with celebrities, with gorgeous women, performing illicit acts his mother shouldn't be reading about.

And above all he is has ability to tell his stories in an engaging way. It's not possible to put his book down. Well, ok , I just did, but only because I felt the sudden compulsion to write something. He inspired me to write. I want to write like him. I want to have his life.

Maybe he's seduced me?

Or maybe being a writer is the coolest job on earth. I would love to be able to write about any topic I chose...to go on wild, weird adventures, solving esoteric and quotidian problems alike, writing about them in a way that is not only fulfilling and fun for me, but intoxicating to the reader.

Right now my Hindu next door neighbors are blasting "We are family" and it's nearing midnight on a Sunday ...

Ok..time to play devil's advocate. Is being a writer really the shit? How many people actually get to write about what they like? For every Neil Strauss how many writers out there are living in the parents basement and eating Ramen Noodles? Why did Hemingway kill himself? Why was F. Scott Fitzgerald a pathetic alcoholic? What is it about the writing profession the drives people to depression?

The writer's mind is constantly thinking, constantly documenting, analyzing and trying to code events in the real world with the perfectly worded sentences. To be a good writer one has to have an overactive mind. Perhaps overactive minds aren't happy minds..

Nietzsche wasn't happy.

But he had syphillis..so he had an excuse..

but he had syphillis because he fucked a whore because no self respecting actual female would have sex with him...

Shit..maybe being a writer sucks...


but then why is writing this blog so fun? Why is writing one of the funnest activities I engage in? It challenges my brain while allowing me to playful at the same time. I can unload my thoughts into cyberspace and allow others a brief, if not somewhat distorted simulcrum of my mind.

Writing it awesome. When I get to write about what I want..


Maybe one day someone will pay me to hear my stories. But for now you get to read them for free. So enjoy.

A God Amongst Mere Mortals

What would it be like to walk through the world without any sense of fear. Knowing that you're a supreme being, and that everyone else is inferior to you.

I have video evidence of just such a specimen. I was about to preface specimen with the word 'human', but to call him human would be a lie. This is no mere mortal.

I present to you...the Techno Viking..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fgeGdM_HAUw

It's your world techno Viking. We just live in it.

The Dawn

One Day You Are Going To Fucking Die


....Let that sink into your brain. One day you are going to fucking die. That's it. The end. That short brief period where you were matter that became living consciousness will no longer exist. You are going to die and you don't know when. You have a death sentence... You are dying right now. You... are ...going ..to... fucking.. die.

How are you living your life? How should you be living your life? Who are you? Who should you be?

I don't know the answers. But I'm on a search to find out. Come journey with me.

This is the Dawn.