Too much beauty in the World

I have moments in my life where I am so full of gratitude, wonder and curiosity that I find it overwhelming. I become entranced by every little detail of the world and my existence. From the pleasure of wearing socks to the lightbulbs brightening the room that I feel a spate of positive emotions flooding my body.

Is the world actually beautiful? Well I am a nihilist regarding all things pertaining to value. I do, however, believe that this attitude is the OPTIMAL mental psychology one should develop. Absolute wonder, curiosity and gratitude about the world around you.

If one can be amazed, as one should, by the in inhalations and exhalations of one's own breath, just as they might be with the complexity and grandeur of the universe at large with its with it's spiraling galaxies and exploding stars- they will find a neverending plethora of interesting phenomena to be engaged in...

Think for a moment how astounding it is that you have the sense of vision, and how incredible it is that you have this ability to the SEE the world and all the glorious things that come just from being able to look at things - Sunsets, Oceans, Mountain ranges, things on a woman's body that resemble mountain ranges.

Or what about your LIMBS, you can pick stuff up, use your hands to eat, drink , type. With your legs you can walk places of even RUN. How awesome is it to be able to RUN.

The next time you are sick, don't dwell on how bad you feel. Instead you should marvel at your bodies immune system and how it evolved to fight off the infectious intruder. The complexity of your bodies white bloods cells attacking the invading virus and ridding it from your body. THAT IS FUCKING INCREDIBLE.....JUST THINK ABOUT IT.

The wonders of technology are endless...cars, planes, how the fuck does a cell phone work? How grateful am I for Alexander Graham Bell and every other ingenious inventor who sweat blood and tears to give me a technology that makes my life easier.

With a little ingenuity one can come with an infinite lists of things to wonder, be curious and most importantly GRATEFUL about.

I'll leave you with this... Although if you haven't seen American Beauty...Don't watch it. It's the very ending. And you would be ruining the greatest movie ever made...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sYrgHju3d-E&feature=related

MEME's

As I promised by my last post, I will bring up the subject of memes. But only a short intro at the moment, for I plan to write a much larger and more in depth philosophical post on memes as soon as I finish a book that I'm reading and I have time to go back and brush up my thinking on books I've already read.

The Definition of a meme: " consists of any unit of cultural information, such as a practice or idea, that gets transmitted verbally or by repeated action from one mind to another. Examples include thoughts, ideas, theories, practices, habits, songs, dances and moods and terms such as race, culture, and ethnicity"

"Hey Jude" is a meme. The Macarena dance is a meme. Christianity is a meme. A thetan is an imaginary soul to do with scientology, but is also a meme.

So you might ask..what's the big deal? Well Richard Dawkins revolutionary idea was that meme's are also subject to the laws of natural selection just like genes. Meme's do not desire to be replicated and passed on from human to human..no more than the common cold virus 'wants' to pass from person to person. But based on their fitness (their ability to spread aka replicate themselves in the minds of humans) they either continue to get passed on, or they die out.

"Hey Jude" still exists because people enjoy it a lot and still play it. A lot of memes exist because they are helpful to human beings (getting vaccination shots) would be one while others such as bloodletting die out because they are found out to be not helpful to humans.

So far so good. Good memes that help out humans last, while bad memes eventually die out...but its not so simple. Some memes are good at getting themselves replicated, but by their design are harmful to the human minds they infiltrate.

A perfect example of this is the Muslim meme of "if you suicide yourself for the muslim faith you will be awarded 72 virgins in heaven." This meme destroys the mind it gets passed on to, but it gets the person who killed themselves some recognition and on the news and more people find out about the "72 virgins in heaven" meme, which further spreads the meme.

These memes are called meme viruses.

Christianity is one such meme virus. It is so powerful that unlike other memes like "Hey Jude" it takes over the mind it infiltrates and gets the human to devote his or her life in service of the meme, getting the person to spend his life proselytezing and further trying to spread the meme.

Your Life Purpose Was Programmed at Birth

I'm about to tell you something so incredible as to be completely mindblowing. You are going to have difficulty wrapping your head around it at first and you won't believe it. But it is absolutely true and should you so require or request furthing reading on the subject I will happily point you in the right direction.

I'm about to tell your life purpose. You do have one. You are just unaware that you do. I am literally , and I'm not just fucking around here with hyperbole. I'm about to tell you the most astonishing thing you have ever heard in your life.

I will go so far as to say if you read this. Your life will never be the same. You have been warned.Here it is ...are you ready?You were programmed at birth to live your life and fulfill a purpose. Who did the programming? Your genes, and what was the purpose they programmed you for? To make replicas of themselves.Every part of your entire existence is programmed with instructions to complete this task. You are programmed to feel hungry so you will eat and tired when you need sleep, and fear (the flight or fight response) when you feel danger. All of this is in order to grow up and survive. The goal is to make it to the age where you are capable of reproducing. When you get to this age you are programmed to start looking around for someone to reproduce with..you need a member of the opposite sex to complete your mission. But it can't just be any member of the opposite sex, it has to be a member with good, healthy genes. This way you'll have good healthy offspring who have a better chance of giving you grandchildren and further replicating your genes. This is why you are attracted to healthy looking males or females, not fat disgusting sick ones.

But it is not enough for you to be attracted to the female, for then you would just have sex with her and leave and she would be all alone to raise the child. the child and therefore your genes would have a better chance of surviving if you were around to help. So your genes programmed you with the ability to feel an emotion..we call it Love. This emotion you'll feel around your spouse and your offspring is so powerful that it will ensure you stick around to raise them.

This is the life purpose that you have been programmed for. To replicate the genes in your body. Almost everything you do, whether conscious or unconscious is directed toward this aim.

Your genes are in control. The entire purpose of your life is to do what they want you to do.

The only exception is that of when your brain gets hijacked by memes. That is an evernmore mindblowing discussion, and perhaps the topic of my next post.

Me The Writer Vs Me in Real Life

For those that know me in real life, there are numerous adjectives that probably come to mind when they think of me...

cool, funny, a leader of men... and I'll stop there.....for pigheaded would not definetely be one of them.. but for sure these people would notice a disconnect between Jevan the writer and Jevan the abnormally well endowed living person.

Why is that?

You see, I only write when I'm in a certain state of mind..a state of mind that DEMANDS that something creative flow out of me, that I put my thoughts into physical reality and make them concrete. Something more than just fleeting images in my brain. My mind tends to be very chaotic, more chaotic than other people..perhaps..I don't know, I'd love to live inside someone else's brain for a while (but that's a whole different post) and find out.

I only write when I'm in the mood for writing, and I'm rarely in the mood for writing..but when I am and I actually put my pen to the paper, or in this case, beautiful yet masculine fingers to the keyboard..this is what flows out. 90% unedited, ...I just write whatever comes to mind.

Jevan the writer tends to be a fairly intense individual, with a knack for hyperbole. Writing is just more interesting that way...but if you ever met me on the street you wouldn't be meeting the same person..you'd be meeting a ...well to be honest you'd be too enchanted by my gorgeous eyes to notice anything else...

The Allure of Being a Writer

I just read two chapter's in Neil Strauss's book the Stylelife diaries. AWESOME.

I don't know how happy he really is on the inside, but the man is just fucking awesome. He's a world famous writer and a pick up artist. He has adventures all around the world, with celebrities, with gorgeous women, performing illicit acts his mother shouldn't be reading about.

And above all he is has ability to tell his stories in an engaging way. It's not possible to put his book down. Well, ok , I just did, but only because I felt the sudden compulsion to write something. He inspired me to write. I want to write like him. I want to have his life.

Maybe he's seduced me?

Or maybe being a writer is the coolest job on earth. I would love to be able to write about any topic I chose...to go on wild, weird adventures, solving esoteric and quotidian problems alike, writing about them in a way that is not only fulfilling and fun for me, but intoxicating to the reader.

Right now my Hindu next door neighbors are blasting "We are family" and it's nearing midnight on a Sunday ...

Ok..time to play devil's advocate. Is being a writer really the shit? How many people actually get to write about what they like? For every Neil Strauss how many writers out there are living in the parents basement and eating Ramen Noodles? Why did Hemingway kill himself? Why was F. Scott Fitzgerald a pathetic alcoholic? What is it about the writing profession the drives people to depression?

The writer's mind is constantly thinking, constantly documenting, analyzing and trying to code events in the real world with the perfectly worded sentences. To be a good writer one has to have an overactive mind. Perhaps overactive minds aren't happy minds..

Nietzsche wasn't happy.

But he had syphillis..so he had an excuse..

but he had syphillis because he fucked a whore because no self respecting actual female would have sex with him...

Shit..maybe being a writer sucks...


but then why is writing this blog so fun? Why is writing one of the funnest activities I engage in? It challenges my brain while allowing me to playful at the same time. I can unload my thoughts into cyberspace and allow others a brief, if not somewhat distorted simulcrum of my mind.

Writing it awesome. When I get to write about what I want..


Maybe one day someone will pay me to hear my stories. But for now you get to read them for free. So enjoy.

A God Amongst Mere Mortals

What would it be like to walk through the world without any sense of fear. Knowing that you're a supreme being, and that everyone else is inferior to you.

I have video evidence of just such a specimen. I was about to preface specimen with the word 'human', but to call him human would be a lie. This is no mere mortal.

I present to you...the Techno Viking..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fgeGdM_HAUw

It's your world techno Viking. We just live in it.

The Dawn

One Day You Are Going To Fucking Die


....Let that sink into your brain. One day you are going to fucking die. That's it. The end. That short brief period where you were matter that became living consciousness will no longer exist. You are going to die and you don't know when. You have a death sentence... You are dying right now. You... are ...going ..to... fucking.. die.

How are you living your life? How should you be living your life? Who are you? Who should you be?

I don't know the answers. But I'm on a search to find out. Come journey with me.

This is the Dawn.